enjoy the breezes...

Ocean & Life

Love the Ocean
Love your Life

Finally Life is opening up like the Ocean
under the open sky
I'm going to find my freedom
And dreams
Bring them into my Life
Enjoy by the Ocean...

Monday, July 31, 2006 @ 10:09:00 PM

i hav been spending way too much in the mth of july..
but i consider myself no payday for this mth as well..
ytd, juz with my bitch sis, i oredi spent close to a 100.. for sushi buffet and ktv...

no monday blue.. cos i'm in a nice workin culture :)
but inefficient thruout the day, no wonder time passed damn fast.
was trying and learning to do new things, at the same time, refreshing the old stuffs.
i performed as if i was in the pentium 1 era...totally no time to idle...
but i like it :)

tat's all for the day. another mth is on its way.. time really passed damn fast.

Sunday, July 30, 2006 @ 2:52:00 PM

Convocation ball last nite @ Fullerton. The atmosphere was good, the food so-so :p geez.
As usual, everybody just keep taking photos.. for the sake of memory?
I actually had a hectic day ytd.. cos some ppl coming to my house din't inform me earlier tat they will be late..
Issit PMS? or tat is the real me.
My patience has been running out. My selfishness is surfacing. Yet I still can be a kind soul to some people. Haiz...

突然觉得放弃好像是件不容易的事。
我放弃过吗？
我想我是被遗弃吧。

我的脑子里超爱胡思乱想。那一方面的联想力还蛮丰富的。
(如果在事业上能有这样的想象力，会更好。:p)
可是，我每次都得不到任何答案。想了有何用啊...

Thursday, July 27, 2006 @ 10:07:00 PM

8pm today again..:p
but 10am tml.. meaning i'll off work even much later...:p
i really dun understand y ppl hav to work so late in banks???
anw, from the way i see it, this bank has really been expanding.. i see a huge volume jump, in terms of the trades.

2 months of hungry ghost, meaning 2 mths cannot go out late...sobsob (u noe my mum..)
tat means no ktv.. no clubbing.. even if there wasn't the hungry ghost mth, it's still no ktv, no clubbing for me.. cos the only replies i got are like
"no money leh, dun go la"
"paiseh, i got sth on"
"very ex leh, dun wan la"
sad to say, i really despise these ppl totally at tat moment.
if u dun spend now, when u wan to spend? when u r in hell or heaven??
if u dun enjoy life now, when will u enjoy?
if u can't get over the past.. dun even bother to talk abt how unhappy u are.
i'm jus trying to say tat
如果你一直在乎着不该在乎的，你永远都得不到世上最珍贵的。
我不是圣人。我没办法说教。别人对你的影响力其实不大。影响自己最深的是自己。
我真正地透过了自己，走进了一片蓝天。
我不指望，你们会和我一样。
留在你们自以为是蓝天的黑洞吧。
say i'm sarcastic. but it's a reality to me.
anw, i'm not saying all of u, there r some who doesn't fit into this category, u shld noe better urself, with regards to our r/s..
i'm sensitive, ultra-sensitive, tat's y i said all these...

at least i wun have any disappointment during these 2 mths *bleah*

Wednesday, July 26, 2006 @ 9:43:00 PM

My 1st day of work.. spent the whole morning on HR Basics talk. Rather useful for new joiners.
Finally, went up myself to the 16th floor, the door has changed, the seating arrangements has changed rather drastically. Despite so, all the familiar faces are still around, including faces from NTU. I only know 2 ntu peeps are in UBS, but now realize there r more, on the same floor and some i actually know. Like yongyi, zhirong, anna, jueli..and some names tat i heard, jack, keith, celine..etc..tat sort of make up like 9 of us. and only YY is in the same dept as i am but diff team. my lunch today was actually with 4 totally new faces in static. amazing sia.
And I have to share the same desk with one of the new faces, a malay ger who's really ambitious, hoping to go into the frontline. good for her, hope she gets her way. And I have to use laptop for the time being till next week. And guess what, my line manager wants me to bring the laptop back and forth everyday while i use it!!! but luckily, my colleague stationed himself conveniently by a lockable cupboard to let me put there w/o my line mgr knowing..hahahahaha.. so ppl shh!!! but my first day, team leader wanted me to stay late, others tot i hav nothin to do so shld go back early.. but i only got to go back ard 8pm.........how's life goin to be in the future???????

Tuesday, July 25, 2006 @ 3:42:00 PM

REPUBLISHED

Today is a happy day for all :)
And I'm grateful to everybody who has been in the chapters of my university life.
First and foremost, needless to say, my family!!!

Precious Secondary sch frenz who forked out their time and gift :). Thx aunty yap! Thx baby & ah wey!

Ah wey, Me, Aunty Yap, Baby

Next, my year1's precious frenz aka classmates :) Thx Joel brother for your loudloud clap for me :)

Ruihui, Leong Chee, Lili (NTU pageant Queen), Chu Wee, Me, Joel

Jingsi & Me

Yuda & Me

Mr tyw & Me

Frenz of JJC, and some of us definitely bonded more in the past 3 yrs :) And I know we'll still be ard for each other in the years to come :)

Yvonne, Qinlei, Yiwen, Huimin, Me, Theresa
01s17 - 01s16

Chu Wee & Me

Suyun & Me

Frenz of Qihua Primary :).. our long lasting frenship which we wouldn't want to rem, cos it'll make us feel soso old :p

Huijun & Me

Me, Nijun, Tze San

Yali & Me

Wenfang & Me

Frenz, together, a great time in Canada which I'll nv forget!

Roujun & Me

Sylvia & Me

Karen, Me, Lixuan

My Aussie mates cum FYP mates(minus-ing yali)

yali, huijun, nijun, me

Last but not least, Lam korkor, who has been really helpful even till my last day, last step in NTU hahz :) THX.

And the flowers and bears.. :)

bear courtesy of baby & ahwey
Orange roses courtesy of Aunty yap & mummy?...
Big bouquet from the Gan family :) tat seem to cost a bomb cos it was delivered while the ceremony was goin on..
A red rose courtesy of Theresa

To end this off. Yes, indeed, a new phase of life, now then i realise, how much ppl can change, grow and move on with time. I am all ready with my current simple life, simple heart, to embrace my future :)
I'll miss you pals. maybe some of u come and be my colleagues :) haha. Cheers!

Monday, July 24, 2006 @ 10:23:00 PM

i'm getting older.. cos i'm getting tired easily.. or issit the heavy meal made me tired :p
went for medical checkup @ shenton medical group.. took so long & i tink i saw a sec sch senior, but she's too busy

it's convocation for the NTU business and accountancy students tomorrow!!!
hope i can take picture with every single person tat i noe... tat's so ambitious haha but i dun care.. tis is the only excitement :)

again forgot wat i wan to say.. really getting older :p

Friday, July 21, 2006 @ 9:48:00 AM

yeah i finally awaited the call.. :) and without much expectation, i hav the most excitement.. :)

anw, i was supposed to blog about, how sad i was not able to see jolin while there r 3 consecutive events of her since wed.. :p
wed 音乐会 at zouk.. need ticket to go in (free ticket somemore.. too bad i dunno any high rankers in motorola :p)
thur 签唱会 at marina sq.. jus hav to miss it lah..
fri zpop concert.. delighted to hear maybe there're free tickets.. but alas..
last nite, i dreamed and it's still about the tickets to the zpop concert.. !!!
i hope she'll come open a concert soon..
yup other than jay, i'm oso very into jolin :)
she's realli my idol!

it's great to hav a good news come after some disappointment.. :)

my mortar is too big.. tink i better change one if i can.. or.. i really dunno wat i can do to make it stable.. :p

12:25:00 AM

happy for the past 2 days.. prob partly cos there's not so much naggings.. :p

wed:
slack at home for almost the whole day
den cafe cartel @ marina sq (marina sq again......) wif dinko, yiwen, yvonne, theresa :).. ate sth not tat fantastic.. cos there's fatty bacon and bit of sour taste cream sauce in the carbonara pasta :p
but the company was great and we hang out by the esplanade after tat :)
cooling breeze by the night sky and a 'pro' photographer trying out her new SLR on us..hahz
the nite ended wif me playing gooseberry on yiwen's bf car.. he is kind enuff to send me back to woodlands.. and they involve me sometimes in their conversations.. :p so it's a better experience playing gooseberry than the last time i sat on another fren's bf car.. :p hahz.. thx ger!

thur:
work @ sst.. nothin much to comment except..
stupid customers always like to come in 15 min b4 the restaurant closed and they will stay till 15min-30min after the restaurant is officially closed. haiz...y can't these educated ppl understand simple english like "...we'll be closing at 3pm!"
den received a call from ex-sup of sst.. only den did i realise there's a reshufflement of mgmt again.. no wonder i've got my cinderella frame today.. :p i tot he said wait till ae86 coming den give it to me.. but still wan to say THX.. when i completed it, i'll take a pic and send to u hahaha..i wonder when will tat be..hmm.. :p
finally not goin town.. went cwp for yoshinoya & "dead man's chest"
yeah finally watched my pirates of the caribbean 2 :).. i've loved 1..altho i dun quite rem the ending hahaha..i've heard so many ppl saying 1 is better.. but i would like to defer tat.. 2 is fantastic too!!! in fact more funny, more feelings, more stunning to me lah.. i'll definitely tink of it whenever i eat tako in ssm salad le hahaha...
so go watch it!! highly recommended!!
and the khaki..a good fren who has seemed to often help me a lot haha.. and the first to present me a little grad gift :).. altho it's also wat he bought back from his bangkok trip.. it's a keychain with a little ger (big head, small and fragile body haha) with a mortar, realli cute and made of the kind of material tat i like...it's wooden. THX again :)

对你所说的，我开始不在意了。
原来这又是短暂的...

Monday, July 17, 2006 @ 11:55:00 PM

a normal day.
work @ sst.. eng eng cheng cheng..
ktv wif urs truly
light dinner @ xinwang hk cafe (marina sq)
choc fondue @ haagen dazs (esplanade)
the last 2 lasted for 4 hrs with my oz mates.. enjoyed it very much cos there's non-stop to our conversation :)
i tink work @ sst is really boring nowadays.. boring until i feel tat i'm slacking so much.. at this rate, i wun survive till sep 11 bah.. :p haiz..

another gathering to look forward to on wed..
still dunno when i'll start work..:p..meanwhile slack lor :)

Sunday, July 16, 2006 @ 8:52:00 PM

weekends nowadays are so different.
i don't hav to keep thinking of
wat work i haven't done,
wat i need to study to do tut,
wat needs to be done for projects...
i can go back to msia without worries... :)

i tink i'm a very insecure person.
i need to be constantly reminded of
how much i'm loved by my frens,
how much i mean to them...
but of cos it's not wat some ppl will do or say.
Jus like my bitchy sis, who was born with a unpredictable mood swing and pettyness that made my day sux sometimes..BITCH!!!
but not today tho.. :)

There could have been a lot of 知心好友, but i guess i've chosen not to make another step further to bridge up the bonds.. :p
it's jus sth tat u wun realise until u gone thru the list..
tat's all.. :)

Friday, July 14, 2006 @ 11:32:00 PM

i'm officially jobless now.. hahahaha..
havin another one or two week break, before i really start a full-time permanent job.
so hope i really make full use of this short break.
my used-to-be & goin-to-be line manager recommended me to go for a holiday. hahaha i wish i can too.. but i'm too broke now.. not having any income, only peanuts from sst.. and there's still some time away from payday.. :p

had such a wierd dream again.. but i felt it to be so real..
it's a dream similar to dearest's dream(s) recently..

2 more weeks b4 the sale ends.. i muz buy sth.. and actually there're lots of things tat i wan to buy.. i jus hope i hav enuff to spend.. :)

it has been almost 2 mths tat i hav yet gone to KTV... argh.. break record liao i tink... sometimes i jus feel the urge to go alone.. but no point.. haiz..

great gathering last nite.. altho it's only 5 of us.. 2 gers and 3 guys.
at least gotta noe another person better, whom i rarely spoke to in the past. in such circumstance, nobody will believe, the 2 of us were even in the same project group before.. tat's how anti-social i was.. and still am. :p or shld say tat's how un-noticeable i was and still am.

my goal for the next 8 years:
from backoffice to front-end, from operations to trading.
or
from singapore to other country.

Thursday, July 13, 2006 @ 11:05:00 AM

i need an adviser.
desperately.. cos i always seem to make wrong decisions.
i scare i'll regret.

12:33:00 AM

我发现，
我对你还是念念不忘。
我觉得，
我对你还是有所期待。
我希望，
会有那么一个你，
让我不再对你念念不忘，
不再对你有所期待。

hopes come when you least expected it.
i never expected this will happen but it did.
and for the second time in 2 weeks, i feel the 'shock', 'surprise' staying within me for the moment. i was numb, feeling blank inside every part of me. is tat over-excitedness?
i was called by my ex-team leader in UBS.
in time to come, probably i'll be an employee of UBS.
meanwhile, i hav to face my trainer in BNY wif a i'm-so-sorry manner.. i really am..

if only there could be more hopes in life.. but i couldn't ask for more, cos i'm blissed.. blissful..

finally will be havin a gathering with my year 1 sem 1 classmates tml, the gang i sorta of miss.. cos we would always lunch in a big group after the marketing or econs tut.. wah i still can rem haha.. i hope it'll be another meaningful nite.. :)

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 @ 9:57:00 PM

i nv tot i will still keep glue-ing myself to the recruitment ads..
but after a week of 'brainwashing'.. i was even lookin at this..

I actually wanted to look for the best employers in the banking and finance industry.. but this is probably the best i could find.. and looks like UBS can be a good choice.. :p
Maybe i shld drop the idea.. but i've heard so much of higher pay, better employers, better working hrs.. :p
the reality after steppin into the real world..

12:26:00 AM

now i wished i haven start working full-time..
cos 'time is not enough'!!!

anw will remember today, 10th July'06 10.41pm, that 1min 45secs.. thx, even though it really means nothing, i noe. but it's sth tat keep my life lookin forward to everyday :)
i'm oso lookin forward to the day tat which i promise to turn this feeling into another one.

while the match was goin on last nite, my dream twirled ard the match as well..where the score exactly matched during the 90min. but i din't finish my dream i guess.. till moments ago, den i realised how italy actually won..

he said he'll miss me, i din't feel a single thing. his words, to me, are just for show. i'm glad he's long over. :)

Sunday, July 09, 2006 @ 11:00:00 PM

for the past 2 days...
shall keep it short and highlight the main points

Sat - a joyous day, overall.
working a bit busily, cos it's busy lah, when? 3-4pm.. amazed rite, gers? 3-4pm there's queue. so i was extended.
next, i rushed my way to kallang, and the weather, the crowd started to make me sweat like hell. i can't rem when's the last time tat i sweat so profusely le..
the occassion? NDP 2006 Family Day..
it's just like preview or sth, but there's no grand firework, no fun pack (tat means no free bag and props and coupons blah blah blah)..
however unexpectedly, there was a plastic bag containing a mineral water, the deflated clappers and a singapore flag. den there was a bit (jus a bit) of fireworks during the performances.. so not too bad.. i went wif the lowest expectation and i was rewarded wif such stuffs hahaha
goin there, reminds me of how much i miss NDP..
miss the JC time, spending every sunday with the gers, sweating ard on the field, enjoying the air-con in the indoor stadium, eating KFC and pizza hut for lunch, singing JJC school song and the dunno wat other JJC song le, taking photos everywhere with our pom poms, bullying the NSman taking charge of us.. the feeling of participating in NDP was marvellous! we were crazy back then!!! I MISS that feeling...
and i'm still so keen on being in a contingent. always been my dream.. i still love to march.. tat's y i'm tinking of joining the SPF.. Singapore Police Force.. On the research.. :p so prob i'll get to play a part in NDP hahaha.. and bitchy sis saw the voluntary police having recruitment drive today, happily told me to join them.. she said it's a stepping stone.. cmon i dun need such a stepping stone bitch! i've got a proud history k? but then again, it's history. i dunno will they recognise history.
and there's a theme song tis yr, but dunno y it's not being publicised. sung by Kaira Gong, gong shi jia.. no idea y she got to sing for NDP. Haiz..
last but not least, yes, singaporeans have the singapore spirit, but i still can't figure out how they have got the name, the "Clean" and green city.. when after the whole parade, you will find every single row of rubbish @ the National Stadium. A sea of red (cos many ppl wore red there) to a sea of white (most of the rubbish are the bottles and the given white plastics bags..). If i were a singaporean, sad to say, i'll be very ashamed.
den, there's the taxi episode when we were trying to go home.. haiz.. forget abt it.

Sun
ate durian!!! i love durian.. but today's, not the high-graded type, so-so only.. but it's ok :)
wanted to shop, no time to shop.. :p 难得shopping mood来了，又舍得花钱.. i need these 2 factors to have a great shopping spree!
went M1 shop to buy new handphones, for my sis and my bro.. not me.. :( and unhappy event cos of M1's stupidity.. shall not elaborate here, cos me, my sis and my mum will venge our anger into the email, send it to the highest authority possible.. i'm damn glad i'm using Singtel now and hav nothing to do with M1 :p
ends of the day with a great dinner :)

now it's time to support France till the end, so that italy wun win!!!!! y everybody will jus say i support uncle team.. i tot only zidane is old.. :p

sometimes, i wish we hav more time, cos there's so much i wanna share wif u, and i'm ready to listen to all u wan to say.. but time is always short.. too short..
altho it may not mean anything, i'm very glad tat u said the things tat prob no other ppl noe.. bcos of u, i wish i can easily clone a you. :p
wishful thinking :)

Saturday, July 08, 2006 @ 12:56:00 AM

juz got home...
i hav only started to work in the society for one week...
i oredi hav the monday blues and looking forward to fridays very much...
and i'm oredi tinking of switching workplace.. too much brainwashing by colleagues.. so dun come BNY or BONY(yes pronounce as bony)... :p
i so regret i gave the ML (merrill lynch) interview a miss.. cos it seems better there..
but still one thing i wun regret is, stepping into the real world and take a look
and the proximity to happy hour on fridays after work :)

my first friday fun..
dinner @ Raffles City SST.. not too bad, the company was great too.. :)
den coincidentally met ahru and vonnie..
walked back to marina square as they were goin to take their dinner there..
so gave ahru her burpday prezzie and a hug b4 me and jea left..
sorri ger, altho promise to go club wif ya.. we're still young and still loads of chance hahz :)

den finally, me and jea went to a fave place.. altho we haven been there b4.. it's 爱琴海民歌餐厅.. located at marina square, the linkway to millenia walk (yes i've recently become a walking map ard the area, citilink, marina square, millenia walk, suntec..:p)
we got quite a very front seat, dunno tat's gd or bad la..
anw, after we settled down, the next batch of singers went on stage, namely the keyboardist (is tat how u call him?) 伟宾, 2 singers, 伊玲，炜竣.. yes it's tat tcs actor, nick shen as jea calls him, i still prefer to call him shen wei jun.. :p
so we ordered a rose petal tea and "simple love"(简单爱), which is actually lychee + strawberry, and plus pearl.. anw they chrg by cover chrg.. which includes a drink.. and the drink can really last u very long..
i'm still very full from the food and drinks right now.. keep burping.. :p
anw, realised tat shen wei jun really quite shuai leh.. haha.. yes i'm 发花痴ing again :p
he's so much darker than b4, a very nice skin tone; so much more macho than last time, a little built; jus the perfect type hahaha.. :)
the highlight coming...
there was lucky draw, picking 2 audiences and get a voucher waive cover chrg for one. at the very last min, me and jea wrote in the lucky draw paper..
the next min, my name was called!!! wah so lucky man!!!
i even tot ours are like so up in the pile, wouldn't get pick one.. :p
den den den, the boss insisted tat the winners should go upstage and get it..
so up i went, shaking shen wei jun's hand!!! hahaha...
and so he asked in chinese "do you want to sing a song?" obviously i would say no
den he tried to joke ard, holding on to our shaking hands, saying if i dun sing he wun let go my hand and let me go down the stage.. he even pulled me.. as i say, he's joking ard :)
wat a nite.. the music was great.. altho out of several songs we submitted to them, only one was sung and it was the last song.. hahz

finally, went home from marina sq @ 11+pm, taking 960.. maybe will consider taking bus home after work next week onwards le.. cos i get to save 7cents for every trip!.. now every cents count man.. haiz..
ok.. tat's all for the day.. hope things get better and better........

Friday, July 07, 2006 @ 5:35:00 PM

knocking off soon...
and it's time to makan sushi tei!!!
how long hav i not eaten a gd meal there.. at least a month man.. cos dinko nv jio me go hahaha.. ok it's not funny.. jus tat she seem to be a fan of sushi tei :p
drooling since morn.. gtg :)
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHRU...it's her big big day...i hope you really enjoyed the day, partying all the way!!! be happy, smile always!!!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006 @ 11:58:00 PM

today, a bit more things to do..
but still, there were times when i really wanted to doze off very badly... but team leader (who's like the 2nd boss) sat next table only.. haiz..
train me and release me a bit late..
so i was late for my part-time job.. where else.. sst lor.. i felt so much at ease..
i tink i stay on for a reason.. not for watever promotion.. not for DnD.. but for? dun ask me. i oso dunno how to say.

disappointment always comes after hope.
maybe not always.
but somehow or rather.
maybe we are not fated.

stupid italy. France, come fast and thrash italy...zzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzz

Tuesday, July 04, 2006 @ 11:14:00 PM

2 days of working.
i'm dead tired oredi.
cos it has been quite a long time to wake up so early in the morn :p
nowadays i yearn for home, the only place where i can relax freely.
but i yearn to shop too, so tat i dun feel boring with my clothes to work.
ask me wat i've done at work. not much things, i can list them all down for u and a non-b&f student can oso understand.
~sitting at a so-called 'good prospect' desk cos it used to be sitted by the Head
~reading the training guide and procedure from morning till 5.30pm for the 2 days
~read until sometimes i dozed off (worst than lectures!!!)
~walk to the Ladies
yes tat's all. to add on a bit, my trainer intro me the system for an hr which i oso wan to doze off. it's not the trainer's fault. she picked the wrong time to train me. :p
excuses...haha

luckily i still hav a bit of life last nite, hangin out wif an old pal from OBS, who still din't let me treat him :p.. prob he's richer than me haha.. he muz be.. anw, it was quite a gd dinner, 1st time had a ice choc wif gelato, it's beverage, not dessert hor.
and watched 'superman returns'
tink i prefer spiderman, in terms of movie.
dunno y feel it's a bit draggy.. :p
or issit cos of my shoe which accidentally fell to the row below me, oops, i played wif my shoes.. only wif slip-ons.. :)

i hope i had better things to do at work tml.. :p
zzzzzz lacking of sleep zzzzzzzzz
hope Germany trashed Italy....:p
hope France trashed Portugal too...:p
Then Germany will trash France, bring World Cup home, it's already home anw..hahaha